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[Dec. 22nd, 2005|10:27 pm] |
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I just got back from the Christmas dinner at my old school. They hold one every Christmas and I went with a freind who still goes to the school. It was really refreshing to see everyone, weird in some ways, but still refreshing. I'm glad I went.
On a funnier note. Today, a girl I know from my school came up to me and held out her hand. In it was placed a small yellow pill. "Down 'er," she said. So I did. At which point she looked at me in shock and amazement. She then explained that it might not have any affect on me since I'm so big and that I might need two. She didn't give me two, and it ended up not having any affect on me. It was still pretty funny though, especially since I only just realized what I had done after I did it. Maybe I do need to take drugs just a bit more seriously...
This morning during history class I was able to find an old world religions text book. That and 'Siddhartha' are the only two books I'm reading right now. I want to learn as much as possible about other religions. When it all comes down to it, I want to know how different people handle reality, because when you think about it, that's really what it is. The various religions in this world are simply various ways people cope with reality. Reality being harsh, cold, painful, and possibly meaningless existance. I am extremely interested in meditation and today read a passage describing it in great detail which I will study later. I have heard many people tell me they can get almost the same relaxed calm you get from smoking up by meditating, and this can slowly relieve most mental burdens. I guess I'll find out then. That's all I have to say for now. I'll be writing more about the discoverys I make while reading 'Siddhartha' and the World Religions text book. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|11:43 am] |
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wow, I haven't written on here in forever. Not exactly sure why I dropped it. Recently, however, I've needed to talk to someone really badly, just about all the shit that's been going on, and there hasn't been anyone around so I've decided to resort to this.
I don't even know where to start. I don't want to tell all that's happened, only that which has affected my life so dramatically just recently. After I went out with Amanda, I stayed single for the next 6 months or so, probably for the best. This at the end of the school year last year. On Halloween of this year I met up with a freind who I haven't seen in forever. She had moved out of her mothers house and into a freind house in Kemptville. I met her freind who she was staying with too who is 17 or 18 and in 12th grade. I'm now going out with her and she is the sweetest person I've ever met.
So far the story seems ok. However, it is becoming worse and worse. The worst part of it all is the problems are all in my head. It's so hard to explain. I'm tearing myself apart over this relationship, Jiliane hasn't changed at all, it's me, maybe I'm just not ready for a relationship.
This past weekend, I went to a party with her on friday and slept over with her and a freind that night. In total I spent almost 24 hours with her and it was amazing. Yet here I am second guessing myself, second guessing this relationship, second guessing everything I know to be true. I keep telling myself perhaps it will go away with time, and maybe I'll be ok and won't always be afraid of fucking something up. She definantly senses it, because she keeps telling me not to worry so much, just to relax. I've driving myself crazy.
That's just one problem. The party itself was a story altogether. I was there and I've never felt so content in my life. Maybe it was all the pot and wine, but the people too were amazing. They were hippi's in every sense of the world. All extremely deep, major intellectual's, into the East Indian philosophies and mediation and the power of the mind. This is one thing about my girl freind I am always amazed at, she's grown up around these people and as a result has the most sensual and seductive touch in the world. She knows when and where all the time. The problem in all this is that when I got back to the real world, where I wasn't talking philosophy and being released from my physical cage, I wanted to die. I couldn't stand it. I no longer can depend on ignorant bliss and now I don't know how much longer I can take it. I'm debating on moving on after 10th grade and taking a trip to India or Japan or maybe just California. I don't know, I'm so confused, I don't know how much longer I can go without snapping. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2005|07:26 pm] |
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If only I didn't need people... |
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[Aug. 5th, 2005|11:22 am] |
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| | "Passive" by Perfect Circle (LISTEN TO THIS SONG!!) | ] |
Who's got $275?? That's right...me!!! I worked my ass off for 4 days building a retaining wall in some guys backyard and then hauling crap around and spreading a dirt pile and other random stuff like that, and i made $275. So now i'm gonna buy this:
http://www.musiciansfriend.com/srs7/g=home/search/detail/base_id/100465
It's a small PA system so I can do vocals for my band and actually be heard. That's just one thing I need to get. After that I need to get a $99 stage mic (Shure SM58) and then I need to get a pedal. I've been looking at the Line 6 pedals because I need one that's compatabile with my amp which already has a ton of different distortions and funky sounds. So basically all I need is a pedal that brings my amps controls to my feet. So that'll be about $340 or so, and that's just the live gear. Then I need to start looking into recording gear. I've already got all the stuff picked out, but it's not cheap. I guess I don't need that quite yet, but I do need to think about that.
On another note, I saw the funniest movie last night. If you ever get the chance, rent The Perfect Score. It's all about these kids who plan to steal the SAT scores. It's really good.
Ok, question, does anyone here have a myspace account? Becuase I need serious help! I need help with putting in a background. Here's my old bands site:
www.myspace.com/antishock
I kind of want it to be like that. With the background that stays put no matter where you scroll. Then I need help changing the font colour. Just random stuff like that. ANY HELP IS APPRECIATED!!! Thanks.
I'm outta here. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|05:47 pm] |
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| | "Passive" by Perfect Circle | ] |
So I've got a bit of catching up to do. I went to fucking Ozzfest for one. Rob Zombie, Black Label Society, Iron Maiden, As I lay dying, as well as OZZY FUCKING OUSBOURNE!!!! I saw him. I actually saw him. That guy is so old but he still has a shit load of energy. You could definantly tell it was Ozzy though. He mooned the crowd, threw buckets of water on the crowd, jumped up an down like a little kid before christmas, hobbled back and forth across the stage as fast as he could (which wasn't very fast at all; notice I said hobbled, this guy is gettin way too old for this kinda stuff). The whole day was definantly an unforgettable experience.
There were so many good stories too. For instance, while we were watching Black Sabbath, my friend Harrison was standing next to this completely wasted guy. He was like jumping around and muttering random stuff and yelling. So I'm wathing Black Sabbath and all of a sudden, Harrison taps me on the shoulder. I turn around to see him with a completely shocked and disgusted face. "Dude! The guy next to me just pulled out his dick and started pissing!!" I laughed sooooo hard. *sigh* gotta love the people.
Then there was the fight in the concession stand lines. We're standing there and then some guy bumps into another shirtless man wiht a cup of nacho cheese and makes him spill the cup all over his chest. That was pretty nasty I have to admit. So then they start arguing. Then another group of guys in their twentys or so get involved. Pretty soon you got about 20 guys taunting each other, trying to get the others to start something. Someone takes a swing. The lines are pushed out of the way as all twenty guys start fighting. One bigger man grabs a skinnier guy by the neck and gets him into a headlock with his arm against the side of his chest. It actually went on a for awhile. It eventually broke up and both sides went back to taunting each other which soon died down to the guys splitting up....or so I thought. Pretty soon I hear some shouting behind me and Harrison, Josh, and I all turn around as nachos, popcorn, and corn dogs all go flying in every direction. They were at it again and this time the bigger guy was beating the fucking shit out of the skinnier guy (who had been giving him shit before, calling him a pussy and all that). It looked pretty brutal, but it was funny, and quite entertaining. The line for the concession stands was friggin long and slow, but between the fight and the topless babes getting their boobs painted at the stall near the lines, it wasn't that bad of a wait.
In conclusion FUCKING GO IF YOU GET THE CHANCE!!! That's all folks. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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I think it was June 20th that I posted part of a song I was working on but having a bit of trouble with. Well, I just finished it and I hope to get parts for it for the rest of the band. I was first inspired to write it after being cheated on by a girl I went out with. But I soon realized the song was not restricted to just that incident, it portrays my frustration with much of the human race minus certain individuals who I find I can relate to. Here it is, tell me what you think.
People Like You
It's people like you
make people like me
go crazy
It's people like them
make people like us
start shooting
It's criminals like her
make victims like him
start wondering
She screams she's innocent
but nobody's really innocent
(Instrumental break)
It's pistols like these
make hands like mine
seem stained red
but it's words like yours
make love like ours
seem tainted
It's time like these
make days liek those
seem perfect
She screams she's innocent
but who of us are really innocent
(Chorus)
I can't believe
in this fantasy
I can't live
with you haunting me
and days go on
as days will do
I can't believe
I ever fell for you
It's killers like you
make lovers like me
wanna cross the line
and the death's inside
I close my eyes
pretend everythings alright
It's girls like you
make guys like me
never wanna love again
thats's the way
it has to end
that's the way
it always ends...
(chorus)x2
(instrumental break)
(chorus)x2 |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|11:42 am] |
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A friend sent this to me and it realy got me thinking, I think you should take the time to read it, or at least part of it.
( Journal Entry by Matt Shaw )
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[Jul. 16th, 2005|07:02 pm] |
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OZZFEST IN 4 DAYS!!!!
i just got back from young men's camp with my church. as i write this i feel like the desk and computer are rocking back and forth, lol, too much time in the canoe :p. also as i write this i am in extreme pain. while at young men's camp, i got one of the worst sunburns i think i've ever had. i am sunburned everywhere except my crotch and my ass. i have 2nd degree burns on my shoulders (theres actually blisters) and everywhere else is red. two words: FUCKING PAINFUL!!! i hate the sun soooo much. i just hope i'll be better in time for ozzfest or i'm gonna have some really friggin painful mosh pits:
me: YEAH!!! ow wait, watch the sunburn! no, don't push there! hang on...there we go, OW!! I SAID NOT TO TOUCH THERE!!!
that'd suck.
anyways!! i've been thinking about emily a lot lately. i dunno, maybe it's good we were forced to split up, cause this way we're not gonna like get sick of each other or something like so many couples do then hate each others guts. (when she reads this she's gonna freak :P STALKER!! lol) i was mostly thinking about the fact that i think i could honostly spend the rest of my life with her. i told her that when we were going out and it hasn't changed, which has actually really shocked me, but i think that definantly means something. whenever i go out with other girls, it seems like i always compare them to her. i always find myself saying, "well this person is really bad about this....emily used to be good about that" just as an example. there are times when i wonder if there is a "perfect" girl out there for me, someone who i'll actually stick with for an extended period of time, i know i'm young, but i wonder if there is such a thing as a girl i could truly love for a long time...preferrably forever. but then i think, "what if emily was that girl" i dunno, i think i'll have to do some more pondering, :p.
oh and before i forget, i just wanted to publicly thank emz (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) chili_gurl) for standing up for me especially in the last post and it's comments, I LOVE YOU EMZ!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 13th, 2005|04:07 pm] |
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| | "Gimme all your lovin" by ZZ Top | ] |
o---m----g, i obviously cann't beleive this bitch. check out this email shannon just sent me:
hey jon, my friend chase has a message for you :):
shes mine i luv her so much and she is gorgeous, so its ur fault u two broke up, u dont kno wat u have lost this is the one u will never forget
u will remeber her for the rest of your life and it will haunt u for the rest of ur days
she is so special to me and i luv her so much
and she will never be back with u , i kno this becasue we luv each other and i would die with out her she is just so beautiful
she is amazing from her sense of humour to her sexy dreads
her lover
chase
can you say "rebound guy"? honostly, if she actually liked him she would just forget me and have a happy relationship with him, but no, she's using him to try and get me jealous. if she actually liked him, he wouldnt even know about me. as for this chase guy, i can't beleive he's stooping to her level! he doesn't even know me! *sigh* what is our world coming to?? this should be fun though, cause i think this guy is the kinda guy who would be like "hey meet me here and we'll fight! and i'll show you the meaning of pain!!" lol, i would so love for that to happen, *sigh* today's youth tsk tsk tsk.
the other thing i find so funny is how once again i was the one who left her....she fucking broke up with me asshole. you can tell shannon has told him her side of the story, puttin on the tears :p. i have to admit, i like watching lovers a lot more than being one, theyre so funny, they always try to be so hollywood, it's hilarious. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2005|12:35 am] |
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This song calms me like a cig. I just taught myself how to play it. If you play guitar, look it up, it's really fun to play.
Hurt
by Nine Inch Nails
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
On my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way |
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[Jul. 11th, 2005|12:22 am] |
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| | "Don't forget me" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers | ] |
here they are, the lyrics you've all been waiting for:
Show Me
I, I wish you'd show me
all that you see
all that I can't see
I, I wish you'd tell me
all that you know
all that I can't ever know
and I, I wish you'd touch me
give me all that you feel
all that I can't feel no
I, I wish you'd reach me
take my hand
cause you know this
was never planned
(instrumental break, this next part is also the rapish part)
there's a kid in the back who
never found a way out to
and you know it's so hard to
when your so blank
and everyday is another
son an' he found a live brother
everytime I feel weathered
and we crawl away...
(chorus)
I feel 'live
you feel high
you don't feel right
can we fly again
I can't stand
with the crowds demands
you ain't right
can we fly again
(instrumental break)
I, I wish you'd enter
leave your head
you lost it long before we met
and I wish you'd stay awhile
take a guess
the riddle's long but the brides upset
everyday's just
another sad tale
everytime I long to sail
sail away
from you and it all
baby that'll be my downfall
(instrumental break, also next rap bit)
see another knight ridin
through the night and you sight him
you know it's been too long
since I've seen him again
through the forest you run now
moon's ahead and you know how
you know it's been too long
since I've seen him my friend
(chorus)
(bridge)x4
you always want to
everytime I fell through
you always need to
well everyday I needed you
(chorus)x2
that's bout it. tell me what you think. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
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| | "Mobscene" by Marilyn Manson | ] |
k, i'll update the lyrics next post, promise, lol. so, i think i'm gonna go out with anne. not sure yet. she's friggin hot and really cool. it's weird cause she's actually a friend of a friend of mine and i remember talking to kyle about her
kyle: man, paul has some really hot frineds!
me: really??! paul?!? like ugly, nerdy paul?
kyle: yeah!
me: oh...who r the friends?
kyle: well, there's one girl named anne. *shows me picutre on his myspace account*
me: holy shit....she's really friggin hot! *eventually leaves and doesnt think anymore about her*
so yeah, i never really thought about her for some reason. then she got my email address somehow and we began talkin and she seemed really cool but i still didn't really think i had a chance with her. then all of a sudden paul calls me up:
paul: uhhh...jon?
me: yeah, who's this?
paul: ummmmmmm.....paul *long pause, paul breathes heavily then laughs*
me: paul waht hte fuck are you doign?? r u.....u better not be looking at porn while your talking to me! *remembers incident which kyle told about when he called paul while he was looking at porn, shivers*
paul: no, i'm watching southpark
me: oh....so wahts up?
paul: i heard you are talking to my friend
me: umm, i dunno, who? *wonders if paul is mad cause maybe i stole his friend*
paul: anne
me: oh yeah, she's cool
paul: yeah, well she wants to meet you....
me: really? umm...why?
paul: well, cause apparantly you are the hottest guy in grade 9
me: how does she know??
paul: class picture
me: right...
and the conversatoin went on. i was honostly in total shock. so i now may have a chance with this girl. i've been calling her lately. she seems like a nice person. so anyways, that's my story for now. we'll see what happens. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2005|04:14 pm] |
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| | "Nymphetamine" by Cradle of Filth | ] |
HOLY SHIT!! i haven't found a song that's made me feel this way in sooooo long. it's amazing. there's a female singer (cradle of filth doesn't usually have one, but she's a guest i guess) and it sounds like celtic metal cept for even more amazing. it makes me wanna go do something...i just don't know what, lol. ok, i'm phsycho i know, but this song is amazing!! i can't describe it, the lady's voice just kinda capture's me and there's something inside me that's stirred. that's what i wanna do, i wanna make music that inspires people; that makes them feel something deep inside. that's like my life goal. to make music that makes people go "wow...."
so moving on. i finished the lyrics to "show me" our bands first official song. for those of you who have heard either "by the way" by the chili peppers or "jesus freak" by dc talk, you know the parts in both those songs where they kinda rap? it's kinda like punchy catchy rap, and it's only after like the first verse and stuff. well i was writing show me and somehow i started playin with a part like that. so now it's writin very smiliar to "by the way" with really melodic verses then a punchy rap bit then a wicked awesome chorus. it's got a lot of lyrics, but other than that it's a pretty simple song. so i'll post the lyrics next entry and i hope to buy some equipment to record with soon after i find a job so i can record the song with the band and then post it on the website.
until next time. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|07:51 pm] |
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hehe, i was lookin around and check this out for a stage:
right onnnn :D |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|07:38 pm] |
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| | "I Dissapear" by Metallica | ] |
( WATCH IT!!! ) |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|09:01 am] |
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SO! let's see, what's goin on here? let me think. i'm not goin out with amanada anymore, we broke up. so i guess that's news. then there was canada day which kinda sucked. it was ok i guess, but the music was just bad. it was so boring, like folk and stuff. so me and josh decided that next year during canada day we're do a concert called "Rebel Show." we might hook up with top of the world, since they had some stuff set up, like skate parks and stuff. we wanna pull in a flat bed truck and park like in the middle of rideau street cause there were a shit load of people there and then we're gonna get a bunch of teen rock bands to play for it. it's gonna be sweet. i just gotta get my bands act together so we can get enough songs to play for it. basically what i wanna do is make a scene like alien ant farm at the red carpet when they played on top of that building and got arrested.
i just recently watcheed "Airheads." if you havent seen it, watch it, it's a must see. it's soooo funny. adam sandler, brendan frassier, Chris Farley, Steve Buscemi. It's got so many awesome actors. but yeah, anyways. the point is, its basically about these 3 guys in a band who hijack a radio station and keep the people inside hostage in an attempt to get there demo played. the thing is they didnt' really mean it. but what i'm trying to say is they get a lot of publicity for it. so maybe if i play for canada day on top of a building or something and get arrested, i'll get a lot of publicity too!! lol, a bit far fetched, but itd still be sweet. stick it to the man! lol. |
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[Jun. 27th, 2005|12:28 pm] |
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| | "Endure" by Nonpoint | ] |
Ok, so on happier note. I had my first practice with the band last friday. I've jammed with Mike before but this was the first me, mike, and john jammed together. We are now a band, officially. So that was really cool. We wrote our first song "Show me." and we worked on a few others. now i just need to learn more about speeds and measures and beats and all that good stuff so i can write that all down for the songs and give it to john so he can transfer it into sheet music for drums. but check this out:
www.myspace.com/fortunesfools
our official website. it's still a working progress, for instance we need photos and shit, but i like it, it's pretty cool. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2005|11:57 am] |
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| | "Control" by Puddle of Mudd | ] |
It's so weird how so many puddle of mudd songs have described exactly how i feel at various times. in "away from me" the whole song is about getting cheated on and feeling jealous. definantly been there. in "she hates me" it's all about a relationship gone really bad. haha, definantly been there. and now, in "control" it's all about how the guy and girl can't control each other. when i first heard it i didn't think much of it. i didn't really understand what he meant. i do now.
i've just realized something very interesting about myself. i'm attracted to control. all my freinds used to make fun of me for going out with 'less than beutiful' girls. i (like them) wondered why that was, because i eventually saw the patern too. i looked at each situation and realized that all those girls liked me first. so i figured thats just who i am, a girl who likes me automatically looks better and more attractive. that's pretty interesting. i didn't go any further than that until just recently when i realized there had to be a reason for that. i know what it is now. i am attracted to control. if a girl likes me and i'm not quite sure i like them, i am in control. they are head over heels for me, but i can control myself. i can turn myself on or turn myself off; i have control of them; i have control of the relationship. it's kinda like when you take a carrot and put it on the end of a stick. i am the man holding the stick, the girl is the donkey, and the carrot is her attraction to me.
the question is, why do i have this attraction? why do i look for relationships where i am in control? because this is all sub concious, i don't even realize i'm doing this, so there must be a reason it's there.
i was talking to sandra (a phychiatrist i've been seeing lately) and we were talking about the reason i get so jealous so much of the time. well, suprisingly enough, my jealousy is directly connected with my desire for control. because when i get jealous, it's basically my brain telling me "you are losing control." the question is, why is my brain so sensitive to this? why do i get so jealous so easily? i talked with sandra more about this and we eventually came to a conclusion. when i was about 10 or 11, my mom was just starting to realize she suffered from depression. this was before she was taking medication and getting therapy. she had many depression attacks and when she had them she would tear apart the house, yelling and screaming all the way. i began to realize that her moods were completely unpredictable. i never knew what would happen when....
"i began to realize that her moods were completely unpredictable."
that's the key to my problem. i grew up in an unpredictable house, so naturally i have a fear of unpredictability; i am scared of not being in control. that's why i get jealous so easily, because my brain was trained to be sensitive to lose of control, and that's why i am attracted to control.
it's really interesting, and when sandra told me that i just kind of sat there with my jaw hanging. it all made sense now... |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|10:08 am] |
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| | "Sweetest Perfection" by Depeche Mode | ] |
hmm hmmm hmm hmm hmmmm, so guys, tell me what i did wrong. shannon broke up with me. i got over it and tried talking to her, it didn't work cause we fight all the time. so she deleted me i blocked her. it's over, i shouldnt have to talk to her anymore. maybe some of you females can answer this. if she hates me so much why does she keep trying to talk to me? and then there's the whole trying to insult me thing, which isn't really working. she's kinda making a fool of herself actually. but the fact is she keeps coming back, what exactly is it that she wants?? i mean, i don't read her livejournal, i don't delete her and then add her again and try to talk to her. i don't send her emails, i leave her alone. maybe i owe her something...hmmmm. it's really funny though, cause she's like a little kid who doesn't get her way (and she calls me spoiled, ha!) and she just keeps coming back until she gets what she wants. the other childish side to that is the fact that i don't even think she knows what she wants. or it might be just she's miserable so i goddamn well better be miserable too, if i'm not then she's gonna make me miserable! yup, i knew a 3 year old that did stuff like that once.
but yes, if you guys have any advice send it on over cause i'm completely and utterly confused. thanks. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2005|09:29 pm] |
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| | "Not Falling" by Mudvayne | ] |
been working on some lyrics, but i'm going through writers block so it's been twice as slow as usual. both songs are unfinished, but i like what i've got so far.
it's people like you
make people like me
go crazy
its people like them
make people like us
start shooting
its criminals like her
make victims like him
start wondering
she screams she's innocent
but nobody's really innocent
(chorus)
I'll hate them all away
I'll hate them all away
I'll hate them all away
why won't you leave me
I'll hate them all away
I'll hate them all away
I'll hate them all away
give a dying man peace...
its pistols like these
make hands like mine
seem stained red
but its words like yours
make love like ours
seem tainted
thats all i got so far. i know what you're thinking, i'm the kinda guy who's gonna do a school shooting. don't worry i won't, i write these and it helps, i think marshal mathers said someothing like that once when people were saying he was influencing kids with his lyrics.
Heres the other song.
theres no love
theres no caring here
theres no life
empty words my dear
theres no line
majestic halls of fear
and still we lie
Try to hide your tears
unfortunately thats all i have for that. i'm still working on it.
so today i went to long and mcquade and bought an adapter so i can plug my patch cord into my computer. i was playing with recording stuff and it took a bit of adjusting, like i had to turn the volume on the guitar down or else the computer couldnt handle it. but its all good now and it honostly doesnt sound that bad, i'm pretty impressed. so yeah, now what i'm gonna do is record all the riffs and songs that i have that i wanna do with the band and send them to mike so he can put parts to them. i'm really excited, we're gonna have our first practice with john this friday. i still need to talk to john but i'm sure he's open. it better fucking work this time!!! |
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